What is going on with me?

Ok so I know that a lot of this blog is just some stupid rambling from a girl that basically only does this when she is way bored out of her freakin mind!! Well, before I decided to move and go to college I was talking to this guy. And this guy wasn't just any ordinary guy, but in fact was my ex-boyfriend's best friend in the whole world. When I was with my ex I always thought his friend was cute and super nice. This was back in high school that I had this boyfriend, well I broke up with him after graduation because he was just an asshole at that point. But, his friend was always nice to me and I would always see him at his work which is Starbucks.

So I just one day commented on a picture that he had posted on social media and then we started talking. He said " This may sound like I am breaking bro code, but would you like to meet up or something?" I replied " Yes, that is totally breaking bro code, but I said I haven't been with my ex for about 4 years so I don't really see any harm."

It wasn't a formal date because we didn't really want it to be. So we just met for coffee and it was really nice. It was so nice to talk to him it just came really easily and he was funny and I really enjoyed myself. After that, we decided to go on an actual date and it was super nice and I really enjoyed myself. So, we continued to see each other for a while but we never made anything official because I just didn't know at the time. Then I found out that I had gotten into the college that I wanted to get into. Then all these feelings came up like when I move will I want to be in a relationship with a guy that is far away? Could I do long distance? My mind was just going in circles. I felt really bad because I feel like this made me not pay attention to him and how he was a guy and if he was right for me and stuff.

I was still seeing the guy and was really considering that he was going to be my new boyfriend. But as I was on social media I ask around to see if anyone needed a new roommate for up in the town where my college is located. I didn't think that I was going to get a reply so fast. Well, a week went by and I found out that I would be moving in a lot sooner then originally planned. So I decided to end things with the guy. And I didn't just end things with him because of moving but also he was still good friends with my ex and he would tell him things that we would do and that didn't settle right with me. I'm sorry but I don't really want my ex to know who've I have kissed. Well he was really upset with me and said that we could still be friends but I hadn't heard from him in a long time.

2 months have go by now and he texted me out of nowhere asking how I was doing. I said I was fine and stuff but then we started talking again. I asked why he texted me again and he said that he wanted to know how I was doing and that he still had feelings for me. Well now its been a couple of days and we have continued to talk but nothing serious is coming out of the conversation but its making me think that I try and give him another chance. I just don't know if that is really what I want or if I want to meet a guy from college. I just don't know!! I just don't want to be a bad person.

Keepin on Keepin on

So I just moved out of my house with my parents. Now I am living with good roommates. I do really like living with them and all that. But today unfortunately Im going to really express some feelings that I have had.

I had transferred jobs from where I was living to where I am living now. And in all the hard work that I have put into this job all i am working is weekend. This really sucks for me social life as a 21 year old. But with that aside I got to spend the whole week with one of  my two roommates. Now like I said I really like them. Unfortunately, the guy who i am living with doesn't have a job and kinda just sits at home doing nothing but playing on the computer and stuff like that. Now, his girlfriend who is the other roommate is a really hard worker and goes to school. So all she asks of him is to do stuff around the house and put out applications for jobs. Well, basically i had to babysit him this week. That was kinda tough for me but i did it anyways.

Just some of the things that i am going to have to get used too.